Journey Back

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There was a time you loved me with no doubt

Then one day that love ran out

The feelings you had for me where gone

You wanted nothing but to be left alone

A sad heart was what afflicted you

I had ignored your cries, I ignored your pleas

Abandoning your despair, you were prepared to leave

I became distraught I became bereaved

Crying out to God to change this blackened heart of mine

Running out of time

He heard my cries, He heard my pleas

A changed heart was His decree

My heart is yours wholly if you desire

Winning your love is what I aspire

This journey to join us back as one

A pilgrimage I will travel until I have won


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Words of a Writer

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Places, people and imaginary creatures

Pink tutu ballerinas dancing in the bleachers

Clouds lazily move across skies of unimaginable colors

Two lovers express words brought to life in Technicolor

Amazing lands full of magic and wonder

Pirates raiding the high seas for plunder

Vampires and werewolves full of sex appeal

People praying to God with full zeal

So many things come from her head

Written down with paper and a pen

Like a sword it strikes blows that pierce your heart

Words that make a pictures like a painter does to art

She amazes me with each word she writes

Talent never-ending like a satellite roaming across a dark night


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For my wife ~M my inspiration.

 

 

Reintroduction of A Soldier’s Walk

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I just wanted to say thank you first to all of you out there that have taken the time to read my writings. When I first started this blog, I didn’t know what to expect or whether I would be able to even write anything. My experience with writing anything was an occasional letter to someone and writing Papers in High School and College (A long time ago for both). I am what you would have called at the time, a failed husband, a self-prescribed underwhelming father and just going through the motions of life. I was really dead inside and was lost at how to get out of it. My wonderful wife, who I almost lost due to this absence I had allowed into our marriage is the one who lead me into this world. She has been blogging for around 3 years and I must say is an amazing writer. See her blog here; https://puttingmyfeetinthedirt.com/ . I won’t go into her journey with her blog, but let’s just say my absence in our marriage was behind some of her writings. I didn’t know a thing about poetry beyond maybe Dr. Seuss books. I just knew I had so much bottled up inside of me. I was never one who was good with emotions, I just bottled them up and stuffed them deep down inside. With writing this blog I have found a freedom to express a lot of these emotions not only through my writing, but in my life. Over these last few months I have been on a journey that was to win the heart of my wife back. I know this is not a journey with an end, but something I need to do every day.

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A majority of my writing has been inspired on my feelings towards my lovely wife. I hope this journey may inspire others to know that it is never too late to fight for what is right, no matter what it may be. I know a lot of you were surprised to find out that ~ M and I were husband and wife. It was a decision made mutually between us to hide that fact until we knew was the right time. I have learned a lot about myself through this blogging adventure and reading and interacting with so many of you have really made a lasting imprint on my life. I am amazed by all the talent I see through so many of you and am inspired by it. Again I want to just reintroduce myself and say hello and thank you for coming along on this journey with me.


Yup that is a real picture of me.

 

On Top of the Mountain

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Standing on top of the mountain so high 

Telling the world look at me, full of my pride

World looks back and strikes me down

Knocking me off this ground so high 

Tumbling down among the rocks I fall

Bashing me bruising my very soul

Crashing amongst the trees

Busting me breaking my heart to pieces 

Falling all the way down to the bottom I go

Landing in the mud and the muck of this world so cold

Wanting to just lay down and stay

The valley of death stares my way

Slowly pulling myself back to my knees

I look to the only one who can rescue me

Lift me up Oh Lord upon the wings of an eagle

Heal my battered and bruised soul

Put the pieces of this heart so broken

Back to where they once did belong

Lord my Savior, Lord my God

Guide me back to the mountain top so high


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A Voice in the Heavens

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Uncertainty clouds my view

Tearing me apart on the inside

Grasping for something to hold on

Looking for the truth in my sight

On what path should I go

How do I choose the way ahead

Looking at the past I see darkness closing in

Listening for a voice in the heavens

Telling me which way to go

A song reaches out to me from the nebulous

Calling me forward

Giving me hope

The music of the Angels

A beautiful hymn of love and grace

Brings me to that truthful place.


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Thank You

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I just want to thank all of you who have come and visited my site. I really didn’t expect anyone to read my stuff. I wasn’t sure where or what I was going to write about. If you have read my stuff I guess you can say my main muse was my lovely, beautiful, awesome wife. As you can tell I think the world of her and she was the one who told me that I could do this. I didn’t think I could and I for the longest time refused to write anything. I have also been able to let a lot of what I have felt and dealt with in my life. It has been a journey for me and hopefully you also. It is still hard to believe that I have over 50 followers to this site of mine. I have enjoyed reading so many of your blogs to, it has been an inspiration in my life. The beauty I see in so many of all of your writings and pictures has really been a blessing. The aspects of your lives that so many of you share has been uplifting to me and shown me there are so many other’s like myself going through daily issues. I can’t say thank you so much to all of you enough. I look forward to continuing on with my attempts at writing and finding that inner part of me that I didn’t know existed for such a long time. What do I have to be thankful for is the aspect of being able to share with all of you and for you to share back with me. I am thankful for the wonderful wife I have who I love so dearly and my wonderful children. I love this country of mine that I have given 20 years of my life serving and protecting. I still have a few years left in me, but I look forward to my next adventure in life. I am thankful that I am a child of Christ and that I have a Lord and Savior who has forgiven me even though I so often think I don’t deserve it. Happy Thanksgiving a little early to all of you, wherever you are or whatever country you live in. It is a holiday for giving thanks and here also for some football and good food, time with family and friends.

 

Thank you all…

Bed

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A place to lay

A place to sleep

A place to snuggle

A place to, well you know what

A place to read

A place to play

A place of solitude

A place of laughing and crying

My Bed is a place I go for so much

Now I just need some comfortable pillows to make it complete

 

My Walk Begins

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This is my first post, I have never done anything like this before, but there is someone who is very special in my life who is a full-time blogger and I got the inspiration from her. I don’t even pretend that I am a good or even competent writer, so bear with me. I want to use this blog to express some things that I need to get off my chest and discover a way to improve myself by connecting with others. So let this adventure begin and wish me luck.