Well hello all you out there in blog land, as you have noticed it’s been a while since I wrote. I’m on the mend and doing much better. My shoulder is healing good and getting stronger every day. This summer has been a long one and since I’m down here in Louisiana, a hot and humid one. I’m looking forward to moving back north. My days as a soldier are running down, so soon I will hang my boots up and be onto the next part of my life. Before then I have to deal with another birthday, it’s one of the big ones. I just want to thank everyone for their patience and their wishes and prayers for my healing. So today I reintroduce myself back into this world of blogging and say I have missed you all and look forward to hearing from you and reading all your amazing stories and poems. So off we go……..
writing
Journey Back
There was a time you loved me with no doubt
Then one day that love ran out
The feelings you had for me where gone
You wanted nothing but to be left alone
A sad heart was what afflicted you
I had ignored your cries, I ignored your pleas
Abandoning your despair, you were prepared to leave
I became distraught I became bereaved
Crying out to God to change this blackened heart of mine
Running out of time
He heard my cries, He heard my pleas
A changed heart was His decree
My heart is yours wholly if you desire
Winning your love is what I aspire
This journey to join us back as one
A pilgrimage I will travel until I have won
Photo Credit: S3.amazonaws.com
Words of a Writer
Places, people and imaginary creatures
Pink tutu ballerinas dancing in the bleachers
Clouds lazily move across skies of unimaginable colors
Two lovers express words brought to life in Technicolor
Amazing lands full of magic and wonder
Pirates raiding the high seas for plunder
Vampires and werewolves full of sex appeal
People praying to God with full zeal
So many things come from her head
Written down with paper and a pen
Like a sword it strikes blows that pierce your heart
Words that make a pictures like a painter does to art
She amazes me with each word she writes
Talent never-ending like a satellite roaming across a dark night
Picture Credit: Pixabay.com
For my wife ~M my inspiration.
Reintroduction of A Soldier’s Walk
I just wanted to say thank you first to all of you out there that have taken the time to read my writings. When I first started this blog, I didn’t know what to expect or whether I would be able to even write anything. My experience with writing anything was an occasional letter to someone and writing Papers in High School and College (A long time ago for both). I am what you would have called at the time, a failed husband, a self-prescribed underwhelming father and just going through the motions of life. I was really dead inside and was lost at how to get out of it. My wonderful wife, who I almost lost due to this absence I had allowed into our marriage is the one who lead me into this world. She has been blogging for around 3 years and I must say is an amazing writer. See her blog here; https://puttingmyfeetinthedirt.com/ . I won’t go into her journey with her blog, but let’s just say my absence in our marriage was behind some of her writings. I didn’t know a thing about poetry beyond maybe Dr. Seuss books. I just knew I had so much bottled up inside of me. I was never one who was good with emotions, I just bottled them up and stuffed them deep down inside. With writing this blog I have found a freedom to express a lot of these emotions not only through my writing, but in my life. Over these last few months I have been on a journey that was to win the heart of my wife back. I know this is not a journey with an end, but something I need to do every day.
A majority of my writing has been inspired on my feelings towards my lovely wife. I hope this journey may inspire others to know that it is never too late to fight for what is right, no matter what it may be. I know a lot of you were surprised to find out that ~ M and I were husband and wife. It was a decision made mutually between us to hide that fact until we knew was the right time. I have learned a lot about myself through this blogging adventure and reading and interacting with so many of you have really made a lasting imprint on my life. I am amazed by all the talent I see through so many of you and am inspired by it. Again I want to just reintroduce myself and say hello and thank you for coming along on this journey with me.
Yup that is a real picture of me.
On Top of the Mountain
Standing on top of the mountain so high
Telling the world look at me, full of my pride
World looks back and strikes me down
Knocking me off this ground so high
Tumbling down among the rocks I fall
Bashing me bruising my very soul
Crashing amongst the trees
Busting me breaking my heart to pieces
Falling all the way down to the bottom I go
Landing in the mud and the muck of this world so cold
Wanting to just lay down and stay
The valley of death stares my way
Slowly pulling myself back to my knees
I look to the only one who can rescue me
Lift me up Oh Lord upon the wings of an eagle
Heal my battered and bruised soul
Put the pieces of this heart so broken
Back to where they once did belong
Lord my Savior, Lord my God
Guide me back to the mountain top so high
Photo Credit: static1.squarespace.com
A Voice in the Heavens
Uncertainty clouds my view
Tearing me apart on the inside
Grasping for something to hold on
Looking for the truth in my sight
On what path should I go
How do I choose the way ahead
Looking at the past I see darkness closing in
Listening for a voice in the heavens
Telling me which way to go
A song reaches out to me from the nebulous
Calling me forward
Giving me hope
The music of the Angels
A beautiful hymn of love and grace
Brings me to that truthful place.
Picture Credits: deadfake.deviantart.com
Thank You
I just want to thank all of you who have come and visited my site. I really didn’t expect anyone to read my stuff. I wasn’t sure where or what I was going to write about. If you have read my stuff I guess you can say my main muse was my lovely, beautiful, awesome wife. As you can tell I think the world of her and she was the one who told me that I could do this. I didn’t think I could and I for the longest time refused to write anything. I have also been able to let a lot of what I have felt and dealt with in my life. It has been a journey for me and hopefully you also. It is still hard to believe that I have over 50 followers to this site of mine. I have enjoyed reading so many of your blogs to, it has been an inspiration in my life. The beauty I see in so many of all of your writings and pictures has really been a blessing. The aspects of your lives that so many of you share has been uplifting to me and shown me there are so many other’s like myself going through daily issues. I can’t say thank you so much to all of you enough. I look forward to continuing on with my attempts at writing and finding that inner part of me that I didn’t know existed for such a long time. What do I have to be thankful for is the aspect of being able to share with all of you and for you to share back with me. I am thankful for the wonderful wife I have who I love so dearly and my wonderful children. I love this country of mine that I have given 20 years of my life serving and protecting. I still have a few years left in me, but I look forward to my next adventure in life. I am thankful that I am a child of Christ and that I have a Lord and Savior who has forgiven me even though I so often think I don’t deserve it. Happy Thanksgiving a little early to all of you, wherever you are or whatever country you live in. It is a holiday for giving thanks and here also for some football and good food, time with family and friends.
Thank you all…
Bed
A place to lay
A place to sleep
A place to snuggle
A place to, well you know what
A place to read
A place to play
A place of solitude
A place of laughing and crying
My Bed is a place I go for so much
Now I just need some comfortable pillows to make it complete
My Walk Begins
Hello,
This is my first post, I have never done anything like this before, but there is someone who is very special in my life who is a full-time blogger and I got the inspiration from her. I don’t even pretend that I am a good or even competent writer, so bear with me. I want to use this blog to express some things that I need to get off my chest and discover a way to improve myself by connecting with others. So let this adventure begin and wish me luck.