Reflection 2016 to 2017


The year is coming to an end

A year that started with a prayer for hope

Soon to find out hope had abandon me

Lost in my thoughts and despair

Hiding from all around me

Pulling away from those who cared

There were times of great joy mixed in

But joy did not bring hope

Lost in meaningless distractions

Losing sight of the one who I loved the most

With a distance growing longer each day

Almost out of view

My year took an amazing turn

I found new life, I found new hope

Was my change too late?

That is an answer for the years to come

Amazing changes to my heart and to my soul

Seeing two of my daughters find their mates

Exchanging vows with the men who took their hearts

Working my way back to the one I love

As this year comes to a close

I report to you that hope has returned

Joy has lifted my heart

Looking forward to the year ahead

Thanking God for all he has done for me

Hope, Joy, Love, Happiness

May these be in store for you this year

Have a Blessed 2017

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Christmas Memories


One of the best things about Christmas is the memories that are made around this time. From family traditions, to opening presents and so much more. One of the big things I always remember as a kid was every Christmas Eve we would head over to my Aunt and Uncles house and celebrate with other relatives that I hadn’t seen since the year before. We would have a big meal, starting off with Oyster Stew (never liked it), chicken and other yummy things. Afterwards we would gather around the Christmas tree (The same Tree every year that I remember). The most memorable thing I received was one of the most awkward things I ever received. I was about 11 or 12 and got a pack of bikini underwear not sure if I ever wore them. Another memory of that time was Christmas morning at our house, I would wake at the crack of dawn, waiting for my parents to wake. After opening all the presents, the phone calls would begin. My friends and I would call each other to see what we had gotten and whoever got the best loot was the house we would all go over to. One Christmas when I was about 10 I had been in the hospital due to a surgery on my wrist. What was suspected as a tumor ended up being a bone infection. I had to spend my entire Christmas Vacation in the hospital, the entire time I had to have an IV attached to me. That was the only time I ever got something I ever really wanted from my parents. As I grew older Christmas lost some of its magic for me and just ended up being another day.

Not until I joined the Army did Christmas change, being away from home and sometimes being out of the country made me appreciate Christmas again. The biggest change was when I got married and had my first daughter. Then Christmas became exciting again, not for myself, but seeing my children get excited over Christmas made it magical again. Being a soldier I had to spend a few Christmases apart from my family and those where some of the hardest times of my life. Another big change for me was when I accepted Christ as my savior. It made me reconsider what Christmas was all about. As they say the reason for the season changed. I always think back to a Charlie Brown Christmas and what Linus said to Charlie Brown, about what Christmas was all about.

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.
9And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.
10And the angel said unto them, Fear not; for, behold, I bring you tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
11For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord.
12And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.
13And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,
14Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace and goodwill towards men.”

Luke 2: 8-14


As a family we started some of our own traditions and attempted unsuccessfully to try others. One of the things we do is have an all night Christmas movie marathon. We watch movies like; White Christmas, Elf, It’s a Wonderful Life, The Santa Clause, Miracle on 34th Street, A Christmas Story, Christmas Vacation, A Flintstones Christmas Carol and other versions of  A Christmas Carol. I think Mom and I are usually the first to fall asleep. One year we tried to do the “Elf Meal”, not a hit. Mixing Spaghetti, Maple Syrup, M&Ms, Chocolate Pop Tarts and whatever else we put in there. I must say it tasted awful, so that was an aborted tradition.


What type of traditions do you celebrate with your family?

Well I will end this all a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to come.




Broken pieces all around

Shards litter the ground

Walking among fragments of a heart, shattered

Trying to mend what was broken apart

Trying to put the puzzle of her heart together again

Piece by piece I try to repair

Praying that they hold tight

I patch, I mend, I try my best

Knowing that much of this I cannot fix

Beyond my control, Beyond my grip

I can only pray to the one who can make a broken heart perfect once more

Lord of all please make full what had been hollow

Replace the damaged pieces of this heart so pure

Make whole the connection of our two hearts again



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Walking the Aisle

Today is a day all Fathers dread and dream about

Walking your daughter down the aisle

Looking back over her life from her first steps 

Watching her go off to her first day of school 

The good times and the not so good times

A young man has taken her fancy 

Took her heart and she has taken his

Two will become one in the sight of God 

But first I will walk her down the aisle

One step after another further down the aisle we move

Closer and closer I get to letting her go and letting her young man take her hand

I couldn’t be more happy for her but a hint of sadness at passing on my duty as her protector 

A good Godly man however will take my place 

What more could a father ask 

But first I have to make it down the aisle 

So what is going through my mind as we move walk down that aisle

I think of what my wife said to me 

Whatever you do don’t step on her dress.

Oh the pressure 

Daughter number 2 going down the aisle today. Love my girl. 


Rejection is one of the worst feelings 

To feel unwanted hurts to no end

Rejection of a parent

Rejection of friend 

Rejection of a child

Rejection at work

Rejection from the one you love

But the worst rejection of all 

Is when we reject ourselves

This is like dying a bit inside

There is one though who will never reject us

Even when we reject him

Whether you are a nonbeliever or a believer 

We reject him in so many ways 

He has never rejected us

Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ 

As we celebrate his birth onto this earth

Remember when we feel that pain of rejection 

There is one who loves you no matter what 

And will never reject you 

Change of Heart


Knowing the pain you feel

Understanding that I’m to blame

Ignorance was what I showed you

Neglecting what you needed

A change to my heart was required

Transformation was what happened

I have no answers to your questions of how and why

All I can say is my heart for you has changed

Wanting you more than I can say

Excited by your touch, stimulated by your essence

Looking in your eyes is spellbinding

Hard to look upon the past

Praying for our future forward

Waiting is all I can do

Leaving is something I can’t

You are my Today, Tomorrow and Forever….



A Voice in the Heavens


Uncertainty clouds my view

Tearing me apart on the inside

Grasping for something to hold on

Looking for the truth in my sight

On what path should I go

How do I choose the way ahead

Looking at the past I see darkness closing in

Listening for a voice in the heavens

Telling me which way to go

A song reaches out to me from the nebulous

Calling me forward

Giving me hope

The music of the Angels

A beautiful hymn of love and grace

Brings me to that truthful place.

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