Sometimes it feels like my life is being flushed down a giant toilet. Spinning spinning out of control. Down into a great abyss. Well at least there is alway paperwork that goes along with it.
Blessings & Curses
“He hides blessings in his curses, leaving behind perspective after the pain.” ~M Photo found at: travelsinphotography.com
Source: Blessings & Curses
Change of Heart
Knowing the pain you feel
Understanding that I’m to blame
Ignorance was what I showed you
Neglecting what you needed
A change to my heart was required
Transformation was what happened
I have no answers to your questions of how and why
All I can say is my heart for you has changed
Wanting you more than I can say
Excited by your touch, stimulated by your essence
Looking in your eyes is spellbinding
Hard to look upon the past
Praying for our future forward
Waiting is all I can do
Leaving is something I can’t
You are my Today, Tomorrow and Forever….
Heart of Sadness
Heart of sadness
Crying inside
Feeling unwanted
Love gone astray
Crushing her soul
Is Love enough
Or will it go away
Drifting apart
Helpless to stop
No longer the one
Does she really want to stay
Trapped by a vow
Head says stay
Heart yearns to be free
What is she to do
A Voice in the Heavens
Uncertainty clouds my view
Tearing me apart on the inside
Grasping for something to hold on
Looking for the truth in my sight
On what path should I go
How do I choose the way ahead
Looking at the past I see darkness closing in
Listening for a voice in the heavens
Telling me which way to go
A song reaches out to me from the nebulous
Calling me forward
Giving me hope
The music of the Angels
A beautiful hymn of love and grace
Brings me to that truthful place.
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In a Box
Inside a box a life is lived
Told what to do
How to live
Don’t stray from these confines
You will be left astray
Books that tell us how to love
Books that tell us how to make friends
Speeches on how to influence people
Classes on how to become rich
People that tell you how to save your relationship
So many ways and ideas exist
But in the end, they all reside within the limits set forth with
Try to live outside the norms
Ostracized by the world you become
Why do I have to live my life by others worldly rules
Yes, some laws make sense, like do not murder or do not steal
My life does not fit into your box, I am messed up screwed up beyond the norm
But maybe this is what is normal and not what you portray
I worship, love, interact and play in my own way.
I don’t fit in your box
In Your Eyes
In your eyes
Reflecting back at me
I see myself mirrored back
My future with you teasing
Seeing what could be
My past with You tormenting
Seeing what could have been
What I comprehend is a glance
A sight of a love that we pray will grow
In your eyes I see a hope for our future
A sadness of our past
The love we share in the now.
Rambling
Thoughts lost in nothingness
My mind is blank
Words absent from my fingers
Meandering images float through my head
Closing my eyes
Nothing comes in view
Just blurry views of moving forms
Unable to concentrate to bring them into focus
Straining my mind to get a glimpse
Oblivion is all I can ponder
So I end this time
Of rambling thoughts that take me back to……
Why I Serve
Why did I want to serve my country?
What were the thoughts in my head?
I was young and had no real clue of the real world
My father had served, my brother and sister too
This isn’t why, it wasn’t to follow my family
It was much deeper than that
Something inside of me said I had more to give
I serve because I believe in this country
I believe in the ideals of freedom, liberty and that all men are created equal
Being a soldier means being willing to give of yourself for the rights of others
I swore an oath to protect my country against all enemies both foreign and domestic
As a Sergeant in the Army I know that no one is more professional then I
In the Army we are expected to live by seven main values
Loyalty, Duty, Respect, Selfless Service, Honesty, Integrity, Personal Courage
I serve because I want my children to be safe and to grow up being free
I know all this may sound a bit cheesy
Think to yourself what in your life do you feel so strongly about
That you would be willing to make the ultimate sacrifice for others.
I am an American Soldier
Regrets
Looking back upon my past
So much of it, I see much regret
How I acted and treated the ones I loved
Especially the one who I should have appreciated the most
Denying you the love you deserved
Not showing you how much I truly cared
I left so many words unspoken
I left so many feelings trapped inside
You needed just a few words of reassurance
Words describing how beautiful you are
When I think of the time I have wasted
A fool I was and it almost cost me it all
Today I will not let my heart hide how much I care
Tomorrow I will prove the depths of my love for you
Forever I will stand by your side as your friend, supporter, encourager and lover
I will live from today on forward with no regrets
For I will show you each day the enchantment you have upon my heart
Today, tomorrow and forever my love for you is true
A Soldier's Walk 