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#TuesdayTunes – Staind – “It’s Been Awhile”

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I heard this song the other day and the lyrics just hit me hard. I can relate to some of it. So powerful and hits you right in the gut. Listen and read the lyrics below. Enjoy….

“It’s Been A While”

And it’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it’s been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it’s been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means

And it’s been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn’t addicted
And it’s been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it’s been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you

And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it’s been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry
And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve seen the way the candles light your face
And it’s been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it’s me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry

Once Upon a Time

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As a little girl

Her dreams that made up her world

Once upon a time

Made these characters sublime

Princesses and fairies

Made life so merry

Dragons and monsters

Would be her nighttime haunters

As she grew to into a woman

Dreams of life and love

Of a knight in shining armour

One who would be one day her charmer

Knowing one day her prince would come from afar

Wishing upon a star

She found her one true love

Sent from God and heaven above

Written for my daughters.

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What a Difference a Year Makes

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What a difference a year makes

Just twelve short months ago we were as far apart as the earth and the moon

Both hidden inside ourselves

Ready for it all to end

A love we thought built to last

A union of two coming to past

Miracles we soon learned do exist

At a bottom, our relationship did almost land

But two hearts were taken in hand

A hand of God placed upon us

Light of the world shown into our lives

Rising out of that dark place we had settled

Day by day we learned to love one another

A truer more deeper love than we had known before

Doubts were always on the horizon, challenges still lay in our path

Fighting for what we had begun so many years ago had just begun

Good days and bad, we made it through

Now ahead lays the biggest challenge we will face

Just know that my heart burns only for you

You are my love, my life, my one true bright shining star

Just twelve short months ago, I know it would have ended in ruins

But know now my heart and soul rests with you and yours with me

Wherever I go, here my heart will be

A future of brightness we have ahead

Adventures and journeys together we shall share

Know my love for you knows no bounds

No height, no depth will keep me from being around

For what a difference a year makes between us

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Hello Out There It’s Me!

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Just an update for everyone out there in Bloggerland. I haven’t really had much chance to write much and when I do my brain has been going on overdrive. I am in the midst of a huge change in my life which I am both excited about and a bit scared about. The where I will be going is mostly figured out, just a lot of unknown still ahead. I ask prayer for my way ahead for not only myself, but my family. I won’t say too much about what it is right now, but I will give a hint that the name of my blog is a good give away. Hopefully my brain will settle down and let me get back to writing. I tried the other day and it felt like my head was going to explode. I hope to try to catch up on reading many of your blogs soon. Of course on top of this all I have been working long hours in my current position due to the bad weather that has hampered our state over the past week. I hope for the best for all of you out there. I pray for safety and health for you all. Stay in touch and I hope to reenter this family of bloggers soon.

 

Once Upon a Time

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Once Upon a Time

When I thought the world was all mine

So many opportunities in front of me

What would I grow up to be

A doctor, a lawyer, a farmer, a fast-food worker

Off to college I went to find my order

Enjoyed the time I spent at school

Often times getting drunker than a fool

I knew after a while that this was not for me

So I knew then what I would become

For my lifes outcome

The course that I chose as I grew older

Was for me to become a soldier

 

How Do You Heal a Hurt

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How do you heal a hurt

A pain that is ever present

Knowing that what causes it will never go away

How do you fix an injury to the soul

A deep scar that is always there

Flaring up when they are least aware

Sometimes a hug or a word are enough of a salve

To put out the fire of that deep painful ache

How do you help the one you love

Whatever the solution I have yet to find

But I will never stop until the end of time

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Waiting

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Upon a dream I wait

Voices in my head drive my doubt

Telling me it will never happen

Why do you believe you deserve this outcome

Trying to push them out

Anxiety takes hold

I try to stay bold

My heart says all will be as willed

Upon peace it shall be filled

Agonizing over the ticking of the clock

Pushing against a giant rock

Knowing that God is at work

Upon his path I shall wait

Not easy to stand still within the storm

Praying that word shall come down soon

Waiting like a cowboy for high noon

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30 Years

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Where has the time gone?

The days of innocence past

Worries that once we thought would never pass

From our first day of kindergarten

To the day we went our separate ways

Days of classes, lectures and tests

Weekends of work, fun and play

Cruising in cars to the tunes of our time

The only care we had were what do we do next

Some off to college, some off to work

Some started families and others drifted apart

Thirty years have gone by since we left that life

Those days we spent in a High School daze

Now we have new lives

Families, careers and so much more

Friends who are no longer with us we remember with a smile

Hairlines recede and waistlines expand

Thinking back on days we wanted to pass by

Now we would give anything to find that innocence again

Friendships, relationships, parties and more

Friday night Football, weekends with friends

Tonight we will tell stories of times gone past

Catch up on each other’s lives

Saying how we should stay in touch

But in reality remembering how so much of these times really sucked.

 

Path

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What do you do when time stands still

Unsure of the steps that will take you forward

Not wanting to take any back

Caught in the middle of a wasteland

Anxiousness can be overbearing

Wanting to move ahead

Time however moves onward like molasses

Patience is a virtue they say

Wishing I could stay patient awaiting the next day

So Lord I wait upon your word

To send me unto the path designed by your hand for me

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