Five Finger Death Punch – “Wash it All Away”

Lyrics;

I’ve given up
On society
Up on my family
Up on your social disease

I’ve given up
On the industry
Up on democracy
Done with all your hypocrisy

All of the chaos
And all of the lies
I hate it

I’m wasting here
Can anyone wash it all away
I’m waiting here
For anyone to wash it all away
Wash it all away

I’ve given up
On the media
Feeds my hysteria
Sick of living down on my knees
I’ve given up
On morality
Feeds my brutality
Fuck what you think about me

All of the chaos
And all of the lies
I hate it

I’m wasting here
Can anyone wash it all away
I’m waiting here
For anyone to wash it all away
Wash it all away

I won’t change for you
And I can’t take the pain
There’s nothing you can do
And there’s nothing you can say

I’ve given up
On everything
Up on everything
Up on everything

I’m wasting here
Can anyone wash it all away
I’m waiting here
For anyone to wash it all away
Wash it all away

I’m wasting here
With everyone just wash it all away
I’m waiting here
For anyone to wash it all away
Wash it all away
Wash it all away

Wounds of My Past

Deep pains that I thought would never pass

Scars of my youth I tried to stay hidden

Running from what I thought was so wrong

Hiding within a mask wishing I would never be found

All these traumas and bruises of what I believed not right

Kept me from you and out of the light

For years I hid from you what was hidden in my head

I thought I was a monster who should have been dead

You came to me with only your tenderness

I hid from you in the wilderness

Then a day came where it all began to crack

Letting my guard down I came out of the black

Opening up to you about my pains and my past

I thought you would flee

But instead you stayed with me

Freedom I found that day not long ago

Breaking these chains from my that which held me low

With that freedom came a love I had denied

It flowed from me like river run wild

My scars and pains laid bare

A love I have for you is eternal I swear


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Two Lives

Two lives upon this earth did meet
From separate worlds they did greet
Fell for one another once upon a time
A romance that felt so sublime
As the years passed by
Their relationship began to petrify
Conversations not had
The spark had gone dead
At the end of the rope
When they both had lost hope
A second chance did arise
Though many tears they did cry
The scars though run deep
Causing many restless nights of sleep
A spark of love began to flame
But distance between did gain
Two different people they did become
What in the end would be the outcome
Searching for things anew
A life together seen through

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Pain Pain Pain

Is all I ever give you

Sadness Sadness Sadness

Is all I ever put into your life

All I have ever done is bring tears to your eyes

Depression, Despair and Defeat

What I have only provided from my actions

Taking a stake to your heart

Is what I have done since the start

Why do you put up with me still

Bringing you sadness and tears

Fulfilling all your fears

All I can say is taking steps forward are scary

When there is so much to be weary

But to you I make this vow

No matter where I go or where I am

I take you with me wherever I go

Always today, tomorrow and forever


 

How Do You Heal a Hurt

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How do you heal a hurt

A pain that is ever present

Knowing that what causes it will never go away

How do you fix an injury to the soul

A deep scar that is always there

Flaring up when they are least aware

Sometimes a hug or a word are enough of a salve

To put out the fire of that deep painful ache

How do you help the one you love

Whatever the solution I have yet to find

But I will never stop until the end of time


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#Tuesday Tunes – Faster Pussycat “House of Pain”

The only song I really liked from this group, mainly because I could relate to. My childhood was something that was rough, due to a very strained relationship with my father. Fortunately I have repaired that relationship and I can say I do love my Dad. Hope you enjoy another look back at my 80’s musical flashbacks.

Blue

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What do you do when the one you love is sad and blue

How do you make the hurt stop

Telling them it will be ok

Won’t take the pain away

A hug, a kiss or a look

Will this help today

Just being there for them

It is what I try to do

Inside I feel a failure

However I shall never give up

Never go away

I will love you each day

Until those blues are a memory left in the past

My love for you is what will last

 

Headache

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Splitting my head apart

Wanting to burst open

Feeling like a drill through my skull

Head pounding and pounding

Making me want to scream out

Banging against the inside of my brain

The pain makes my legs become shaky

Makes me body go weak

Wish it would just go away


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Hiding

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How am I suppose to act

What will they think of me

How much of the real me should I show them

Is the real me something they want to see

Will they react in horror or repulsion

Who am I really

Hiding myself in plain sight from those I care for the most

I keep the real me hidden inside

I let them see what I think they want to see

The world tells me I need to be like this and act like that

It’s not who I am, so I put up my mask

For so long I hide my real self from all

I lose track of who and what I am supposed to be

Holding those closest at arm length away

I lose who I am, I have gone astray

My facade of the fake me begins to crumble

Leaving me lost in my mind I stumble

Pushing, pushing, pushing away

Crashing, crashing, crashing one day

Till a voice says to me, son you have hidden away far to long

Become the man I have made you to be

Hide away no longer, let the you I created find the light of day

Show those you care about the real you

Throw away that mask and be free my son

I gave my blood to wash you clean from your past

Turn back to me and be mine again

Hidden no more, I have found the real me.

Pit of Despair

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Darkness envelopes me as I’m pulled down

Into a place I can’t escape

My heart turning to stone

My soul lost from my site

Voices call to me

Worthless, unlovable, horrible, unwanted and much more

I try to scratch, I try to crawl my way out

Nothing I do can pull me from the deepening pit of despair

I begin to pull away from the ones I love

A mask I wear to hide my plight

Deep and deeper I fall

Voices tell me you know there is only one way out

I plan the only escape I believe is available

I write my children letters of goodbye

The one I love the most I don’t know how to reach

She has saved me before, but now I’m unsure

Something stops me but I know not why

But I still cannot escape my pit of despair

I begin to turn to mindless distractions

To quiet the voices, but they leave me a void

The one I love reaches to me, but I push her away again and again

A wall grows between us I fall further down

I want to escape and cannot find away

Things come to a head

She says I’m unsure if I can stay

I hit the bottom of my pit of despair

Awaiting me there is a light from somewhere

I look and I see a hand reaching to me

I’m pulled up and out and see the light of day

The rock around my heart begins to crumble

My soul awakens to the warmth and light

Is it to late to win my love back

A hand reaches to me and a voice says to me

My son you are loved, by grace you are mine

My Lord and Savior has saved me again

Why did I turn away and hide my shame

When he never turned from me

 

This is written to talk about my pain. There are times when we see no escape, but Jesus is always there and never turns away from us. Isaiah 43:18-19, NIV Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
Matthew 6:34, NIV Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I hope my love understands that I never stopped loving you or wanting you, I was unable to reach you and I ask for your forgiveness as we go forward each day. For tomorrow is a new day.