Sounds of the City

Outside his window the world goes by

Lost in the confusion he wonders why

The sound of a train and its sorrowful horn

Brings within a saddening scorn

Cars drive by with a roaring sound

Unable to move he cannot be found

Within his prison he sits in pity

While outside his window the cries of the sounds of the city

Trapped by his unraveling mind

Its only a matter of time

Soon the world will be nothing but silence

At the end of his defiance


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Prompt Courtesy of: https://puttingmyfeetinthedirt.com/2019/04/01/april-writing-prompts-2/

Keeper of Her Heart

Once upon a time
He was the keeper of her heart
Held tightly at the start
Eventually that heart did stray
And now it has gone away
Taking it for granted was his crime
Now alone he will spend his time
For he is no longer the keeper of her heart
And now they are apart


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Prompt from: https://puttingmyfeetinthedirt.com/2019/04/01/april-writing-prompts-2/

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Pain Pain Pain

Is all I ever give you

Sadness Sadness Sadness

Is all I ever put into your life

All I have ever done is bring tears to your eyes

Depression, Despair and Defeat

What I have only provided from my actions

Taking a stake to your heart

Is what I have done since the start

Why do you put up with me still

Bringing you sadness and tears

Fulfilling all your fears

All I can say is taking steps forward are scary

When there is so much to be weary

But to you I make this vow

No matter where I go or where I am

I take you with me wherever I go

Always today, tomorrow and forever


 

Reflection 2016 to 2017

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The year is coming to an end

A year that started with a prayer for hope

Soon to find out hope had abandon me

Lost in my thoughts and despair

Hiding from all around me

Pulling away from those who cared

There were times of great joy mixed in

But joy did not bring hope

Lost in meaningless distractions

Losing sight of the one who I loved the most

With a distance growing longer each day

Almost out of view

My year took an amazing turn

I found new life, I found new hope

Was my change too late?

That is an answer for the years to come

Amazing changes to my heart and to my soul

Seeing two of my daughters find their mates

Exchanging vows with the men who took their hearts

Working my way back to the one I love

As this year comes to a close

I report to you that hope has returned

Joy has lifted my heart

Looking forward to the year ahead

Thanking God for all he has done for me

Hope, Joy, Love, Happiness

May these be in store for you this year

Have a Blessed 2017


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Dust Storm

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Wind blowing harder

Kicking up the sand

Trudging forward into the unknown

Sand blasting into my face

Unable to see my place

Walking, walking, walking

Forward I must go

Unyielding it beats against my skin

Tearing and blasting, ripping away

Pain is digging deeper

Can I go on

Blinding me, pushing back at me

My body feeling the strain

Going backwards is not an option

Left or right brings no relief

Forward I trudge into the abyss

Should I just give up

Sit down in the sand

Let it cover me over

To be found no more

 

Pit of Despair

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Darkness envelopes me as I’m pulled down

Into a place I can’t escape

My heart turning to stone

My soul lost from my site

Voices call to me

Worthless, unlovable, horrible, unwanted and much more

I try to scratch, I try to crawl my way out

Nothing I do can pull me from the deepening pit of despair

I begin to pull away from the ones I love

A mask I wear to hide my plight

Deep and deeper I fall

Voices tell me you know there is only one way out

I plan the only escape I believe is available

I write my children letters of goodbye

The one I love the most I don’t know how to reach

She has saved me before, but now I’m unsure

Something stops me but I know not why

But I still cannot escape my pit of despair

I begin to turn to mindless distractions

To quiet the voices, but they leave me a void

The one I love reaches to me, but I push her away again and again

A wall grows between us I fall further down

I want to escape and cannot find away

Things come to a head

She says I’m unsure if I can stay

I hit the bottom of my pit of despair

Awaiting me there is a light from somewhere

I look and I see a hand reaching to me

I’m pulled up and out and see the light of day

The rock around my heart begins to crumble

My soul awakens to the warmth and light

Is it to late to win my love back

A hand reaches to me and a voice says to me

My son you are loved, by grace you are mine

My Lord and Savior has saved me again

Why did I turn away and hide my shame

When he never turned from me

 

This is written to talk about my pain. There are times when we see no escape, but Jesus is always there and never turns away from us. Isaiah 43:18-19, NIV Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
Matthew 6:34, NIV Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I hope my love understands that I never stopped loving you or wanting you, I was unable to reach you and I ask for your forgiveness as we go forward each day. For tomorrow is a new day.