Doubt to Hope

Doubt creeps into my head
Losing you is my biggest fear
Through this my insecurities fed
Feeling you fade away my dear

Being so far apart
A mistake of mine I see
Weighs so heavily on my heart
With you is where I need to be

Seeing your face upon the screen
Your words of love I hold onto
The missteps in my life you’ve seen
But you’ve yet to say adieu

I hold onto a future so bright
You and I become Us
Next to you feels so right
Together again is a must

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The Absence of Her

It was four years ago today

That you left and passed away

A lifetime we spent together

I thought you would be around forever

When I was little you protected me from the monsters at night

That would come out when there was no light

As I got older you told it to me straight

If I was acting a fool you let me know post haste

When I was in trouble you were always there for me

You were the best big sister you could be

Always there when I asked

You were there to help so fast

Now you are gone and my heart breaks

Pain so great I don’t know if I can take

The absence of her still hurts in my soul

Without her in my life I will never be whole

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For my big sister Donna, I miss you each and everyday.  You were the best big sister a boy could ask for.

Picture of my big sister and my oldest daughter who loved her so much.

Writing prompt: https://puttingmyfeetinthedirt.com/2018/09/01/september-writing-prompts-2/

Past

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Always behind you
Never getting ahead
Reminding you of the things you have done
Your past is never far behind
No matter where you go
As you sleep it permeates your dreams
Turning them into nightmares
Tugging at your mind
Pulling at your soul
Your past never lets you go
Till that day when your future stops
Buried six feet under in a pine made box
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Moonlight Excursions

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Walking out under the stars

Left to ponder what is ahead

Wondering where you are

Trying to overcome my thoughts so dread

Upon a stream of glowing light

I look upon a dark sky above

My eyes take in a beautiful sight

I think of the one I love

A kiss to the heavens I send

I walk this trail alone

Hoping my heart reaches to you I pretend

All the way from here to home

I take these moonlight excursions

The rays of which fill me with aversion

To the pain I feel being apart

From the one who holds my heart.


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January Writing Prompts

 

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving

What am I thankful for on this Thanksgiving:
1. My Lord and Savior
2. My loving supportive wife
3. My 4 beautiful daughters
4. My 2 handsome son-in-laws
5. My Mother, who is always there for her family with a heart of gold
6. My Father and Step Mother, who show my wife and children so much love
7. My Sister who I miss dearly each and every day
8. My Big Brother, you will always be that to me.
9. My Nieces and Nephews who have grown up so well
10. My other brother(and my nephew who is so full of life and wonder) and sister (and her wonderful husband) who I see to little of.
11. My In-laws who have always giving us support and been there for us and our children when needed. Always giving such words and of encouragement and love.
12. My friends who I may not always agree with, but they will always be my friends first.
13. My Army Buddies, it is a rare breed which we are, but even though we see each other so little, so close we still are.
14. Being able to still do the job I love, serving the country I love and has given me so much.
15. I am thankful for so much more and more, I could go on forever.
16. May your Thanksgiving be full of the blessings from our Lord above. Count your blessings, you may find more than you realize.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO YOU ALL……

Failure

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A life full of promise

A life wasted away

Full of endless failures

Broken promises strewn along the way

Days and months and years away from home

Missing holidays, birthdays and so many special days

A heart breaks because I have gone a separate way

Chasing a chance that slowly slips away

Not thinking of the destruction I have left in my wake

Failure chases me day after day

Why do I keep going down these lonely trails

Reaching for something, to no avail

Thinking of the future

While throwing away the present

Leaving tears, and a broken heart of the one I love

When will I learn to be content

Instead of living a life barren of

 

Love Affair

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What do you do when you are miles apart

Without you what shall I do

When I feel that pain within my heart

Wishing I was next to you

Upon a star I wish at night

Upon a prayer I wish I was there

Hearing your voice my heart takes flight

This story of our love affair

Built over time

Washing off so much grime

Trials and tribulations we have endured

A relationship that has matured

Upon these journeys we have created

The love we have both awaited


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What I’ve Been Up To

IMG_2324.JPGHello all my Blogger friends out there. Just wanted to let you all know what has been going on with myself. Well I’m not sick or anything like that.  I have made that large change in my life. This journey over the past month has taken me to South Carolina and now to Fort Polk in Louisiana for now. Next month my journey will take me even farther away from my family for an extended amount of time. Once I can get myself settled in I will be back amongst you my friends. Please pray for my family during this time we are apart. Thank you for your time and understanding.

#TuesdayTunes – Toby Keith “American Soldier”

Today I begin my new journey and path in my life. I am going back into the Active Army to finish out my career. I don’t know all were this will take me, but I am ready to give it a go. Being older than most of the people I will be serving with should be interesting. I have enjoyed my last 10 years in the National Guard and have made many friends, but now I have a greater task and purpose in my life. Please pray for my family as we will be apart for some time. I am an American Soldier….

Changes

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Today marks an end

Having to say goodbye to so many friends

A change in life

Can bring so much strife

Uncertainties abound

Clarity often not found

Praying each day

That God will lead my way

An end to a chapter

One that was full of tears and laughter

A new journey I start

Following the call within my heart

A new road ahead

On wings of an eagle I am led


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