relationships

Radiance

~ A Soldier's Walk ~ 5 Comments

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Laying in our bed you slumber

Looking upon your face I am left stunned

The softness of your skin leaves me hypnotized

Your face shines with a radiance of many suns

I cannot look away from its brilliance

Left dazed and captured in your spell

I listen to the gentle rhythm of your breath

A music sweeter than any song sung

A smile rises upon your lips

Wondering what dream has brought it about

Your eyes slowly open to gaze into mine

I cannot look away, I have been caught

Your smile grows bigger as you say to me

I was dreaming of you

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Being a “Man”

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A real man shows no emotions

A real man is tough all the time

A real man never cries

A real man is this or that

I have been told my whole life

This is what being a “Man” is all about

What has this brought me

A life of pain that was held inside

Incarcerated into a lie

Today I have broken free

Vulnerability is not a weakness

it is a strength

Showing those close to you what you really are

Brings you closer to them

A real man is a person who, loves, cries, shows his true emotions and is real in how he feels.

 

For my wife who I was so distant from for so long, who I by my actions almost tore us apart. I love you with all my heart and know that you are and always will be a gift from God.

Thy Will Be Done

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Thy Will Be Done

by Hillary Scott

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not
So

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store

So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

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Songwriters
BERNIE HERMS, HILLARY SCOTT, EMILY LYNN WEISBAND

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Lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc., Universal Music Publishing Group

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For my wife!!!

 

Never Going Back

~ A Soldier's Walk ~ 6 Comments

heart-583895_960_720Before I would sit around and kill my mind in worthless pursuits

Before I would sit in silence and let the quiet of life engulf me

Before I would let you wonder how I really felt

Before I would push you away and never get close

Before I let the wall grow high

Before I let your heart escape and go astray

I tell you now and forever

I am never going back

Today I find my mind looking to explore

Today I sometimes never shut up

Today I tell you everyday what you mean to me

Today I pull you closer when you want to push me away

Today I build a path for us to walk on together

Today I pursue your heart and seek to win it back in the worst way

Today I tell you I am a new man

My heart of stone has gone away

A heart of flesh is what is left

My love for you is here to stay

 

Happy Times

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lovers-1683144_960_720Years of neglect

Months of silence

Days of denial

This was what life had become

Sadness, gloom and despair had invaded our lives

Together we lived, separated we were

To the outside so perfect, on the inside disaster

Then a miracle came to pass

A heart of stone, was transformed

Truth, grace and righteousness came forth

Love, honor and sacrifice flooded out

Now time spent together has changed

Days of Joy become

Months of Happiness becomes

Years of Love

Times of Happiness is ahead

Thank you for a second or third or whatever chance

It is one I will not let pass

As God had taken my heart of stone and made it a heart of flesh

 

Ezekiel 11:19

And I will give them one heart, and a new spirit I will put within them. I will remove the heart of stone from their flesh and give them a heart of flesh,

Sleep

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Next to you is what I desire

Pulling you close as our bodies merge together

Your head lies on my chest

I feel your skin soft against mine

The rhythm of your breath is mesmerizing

Sleep over takes our physical bodies

Our souls connect into the dream world we move

Dreams of you is what I see and into my arms you fall

As in the here as in the there we are together

As we sleep through the night.

Renewal

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7967965_f1024Starting over is a scary idea

It means that what you thought was not ideal

Building something new out of what you were

Taking who you were and discarding the old

After the trials of these past few years

Almost losing that most dear to me

A love that means the most

I found a strength that I didn’t know was within

Love has strengthened my heart to be a better man

Love has revived me to be a better husband

Love has taken ahold of my soul to be better all around

I want my love to know that the change is true

The change in me is deeper than the surface

It comes from a place I didn’t know was real

So each day  I will show that my love is real

That this change you see and feel is honest

I love you today, tomorrow, forever.

Pit of Despair

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Darkness envelopes me as I’m pulled down

Into a place I can’t escape

My heart turning to stone

My soul lost from my site

Voices call to me

Worthless, unlovable, horrible, unwanted and much more

I try to scratch, I try to crawl my way out

Nothing I do can pull me from the deepening pit of despair

I begin to pull away from the ones I love

A mask I wear to hide my plight

Deep and deeper I fall

Voices tell me you know there is only one way out

I plan the only escape I believe is available

I write my children letters of goodbye

The one I love the most I don’t know how to reach

She has saved me before, but now I’m unsure

Something stops me but I know not why

But I still cannot escape my pit of despair

I begin to turn to mindless distractions

To quiet the voices, but they leave me a void

The one I love reaches to me, but I push her away again and again

A wall grows between us I fall further down

I want to escape and cannot find away

Things come to a head

She says I’m unsure if I can stay

I hit the bottom of my pit of despair

Awaiting me there is a light from somewhere

I look and I see a hand reaching to me

I’m pulled up and out and see the light of day

The rock around my heart begins to crumble

My soul awakens to the warmth and light

Is it to late to win my love back

A hand reaches to me and a voice says to me

My son you are loved, by grace you are mine

My Lord and Savior has saved me again

Why did I turn away and hide my shame

When he never turned from me

 

This is written to talk about my pain. There are times when we see no escape, but Jesus is always there and never turns away from us. Isaiah 43:18-19, NIV Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
Matthew 6:34, NIV Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I hope my love understands that I never stopped loving you or wanting you, I was unable to reach you and I ask for your forgiveness as we go forward each day. For tomorrow is a new day.

 

 

Beginning Again

~ A Soldier's Walk ~ 1 Comment

I am learning that to begin again you must go back to the start. In games this is easy, but in relationships this is hard. What if they find out they don’t really like me, what if I screw it up… So many pitfalls go through your mind. I believe that if you mean what you say and do, it will bring a new aspect to your relationship.  It will make a stronger, healthier relationship. So Lord I pray for renewal in my relationship and a deeper understanding of what Love is. I ask that you guide us as we begin again and help us reach that goal of a stronger, deeper, spirit filled Love. Amen….